So We May Never Forget

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This whole weekend, at some point or another when the television has been in view at some point or another, I was either inundated with football or 9/11 documentaries. Football was kinda irksome, because I worried/wondered if I would get drunken phone calls in the wee hours of the a.m. The 9/11 documentaries were kinda worse than the actual day it happened. I remember not being able to look away from the television then, watching in awestruck horror. I remember the eerie sensation of not seeing planes in the night skies, not a single one, and if I did, I knew it was a military plane, because they weren’t grounded like the rest.

Needless to say, I was reminded of the ill feelings and the anger of what had happened 5 years ago this day. It doesn’t seem like 5 years ago, because by seeing the images and hearing all the documented phone calls people were making to loved ones as they died was a bit too much and all too painful a memory like it was fresh and happening again. Perhaps I should take a cynical view because maybe all these documentaries were put out to stir up these exact feelings so we forget to complain and feel pissy about our troops still being in Iraq.

What’s it all about? Can someone tell me this? Are we missing some fundamental reasoning that doesn’t allow us to understand that the extremists only feel that they are doing right in fighting the infidels? That some of these terrorists grew up in an environment being indoctrinated into this belief system is only one of the problems. Let’s see, send American troops to these places to get shot at while flooding their country with Western culture, goods, ideals, and the like. Let’s make the youth want our way of life and the stuff we have instead. Buzzzzzzzzzzz…. Nope, come on people! Wake up! We’re still infidels in their eyes. Actively funding Israel and perpetuating the violence in the Gaza does not and has not helped the situation. All the crap in Lebanon is merely a prelude to the ugliness that’s going to keep growing me thinks. Maybe I am wrong, maybe I’m not.

Something has to change. People need to wake up and look at the world for what it is and get their heads up out of their collective asses. I don’t claim to understand all the causes and effects of the situation, nor do I claim to have solutions. Although I’m sure someone has a better grasp of the problem and has a better solution than what’s happening right now, I don’t see anyone doing anything to fix it. Damnitall! Let’s do something and stop this nonsense!

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Anyhoo, other than feeling rantish, things are peachy! I’m finally getting a paycheck this week. I’m actually excited about paying bills. YAY! I can pay bills! I know that sounds strange, but the past 9 months of unemployment, rejections letters, stress, working at the restaurant that didn’t pay enough, and then finally landing this temp job, it’s a relief to be able to think about paying bills and not panic this month. I’m so relieved. It’ll also be nice to be able to do stuff without having to pester poor Adam for things like the smelly fabric softener he doesn’t like, getting my hair done, PARTY HAIR! YES! Red and blonde is back! Ok, it’ll be back once I get the bills paid up. I can buy clothes again and-and-and-and… It does boggle the mind to think about a budget again. YIPPEE!!

It’s now time to find a place to hide so I can eat my lunch in peace. Apparently the lunch room was reserved for today and tomorrow, so no microwave or quiet room, or a even a chair to sit in. Grrrrr. I will deal I guess. CIAO BABY!

Tammolly ~ Attempting to keep a sense of humor.

...So if I die today I'll be the happy phantom
And I'll go wearin' my naughties like a jewel...
I'm still an angel to a girl who hates to sin